Legacy

Once in a while, something happens that reminds us how short our time in this world really is.
How infinitesimally tiny a part we are of the cosmos.
We spend all of our childhood n most of our youth dreaming up what we want to become only to realize that its too late. Its all gonna be over soon, and noone will know we were here.

But that's not really true, is it?
There's always going to be someone who remembers us. It may be our family, our friends or maybe even a total stranger that you may have smiled at, walking down the street.
whatever the reason may be. We will be remembered.

Someone will notice when we're gone.
So, no matter what may have happened yesterday, and what happens tomorrow, we're here now, and noone can change that.

So go out there and do what you've always wanted to instead of just dreaming about it.
That's what i've decided.... Because, if I'm not here tomorrow, I'll be remembered for it....
It will be My Legacy.

Moments

Life isn't about how long you live, but HOW you live as long as you have.

And near the end of our lives, however long or short they may been, we tend to reflect on our past. recalling memories of happiness and sorrow, of triumph and defeat.

But you see, its not the whole event that we remember. Our lives are a culmination of Moments. Moments of emotions so powerful, that even the hand of God couldn't take them away from us.

This past week I lost  an old friend.

A friend who, once, was like a brother to me.

And then my most recent friends parted for their new lives.

At first i thought, "Ah! that's okay. We'll meet again. And soon too. So, no problem. Don't worry."

but now, it's all sinking in.

It's like I'd been in a head-on collision with a freight train, but didn't feel the pain because of shock and the adrenaline in my veins.

but now the adrenaline's wearing off, n I'm slowly coming back to my senses.

senses that tell me I've just been hit BY A FREAKIN' TRAIN.

I can feel the pain growing.

but that's not the worst part.

the worst part is, that i know that my friends are out there somewhere. Somewhere where i can't be. and they're feeling the same, or even worse, maybe.

Parting with friends feels like what I imagine it is to lose family. It's like falling into a bottomless pit.

No one's ever scared of falling because they'll hit the ground. Its the falling.

I know I have a habit of hiding my emotions. I can't tell you how many times that's gotten me into trouble.

and i'm sorry if i've let you think otherwise. But, I DO MISS YOU.

ALL OF YOU. 

First the Kingdom of Bahrain, then my 12th Grade class, and now waffles and Radhe and in a few days the rest of the people i call family will all be on their own paths.

I hope and pray that all our paths meet, more than just once in our lifetimes.

You'll always be a part of my life.The Moments I'll remember many years from now.

I Thank You all for being a part of my life. for making every day that much brighter. For making me smile when i was sad and for crying with me when you couldn't.

So,

Osama Mohammed Anwar, Namratha Bharadwaj, Rajesh Sasisekharan Nair, Ishwarya Lakshmanaraman, Abhinaya Lakshmanaraman, Romita Theresa Martin, Rohan Mario Martin, Tanu Alexander, Dileep Warrior, Mohammed Kamal, Anshul Swarup Arora, Dhruv Kant Arora, Manoj George Mathew, Mary Ann Mathew, Nadira Siddiq, Jithin Rameshan (R.I.P), Nobia Parker, Deepu Varghese, Nithin Mathew Thomas, Puja Puthran, Sandhya Mehra, Chandni Gajaria, Sunil Raghunath Bharadwaj, Nikita Philip, Ann Rachel Jacob, Henisha Soni, Brigit Thomas, Joseph "Joe" Pereira, Ronnie Alex, T.K. Alexander, Anand S., Aby Mathew, Rohan Thomas Mathew, Aby John, Stanley "Stan" Jes Varghese, Jerry Jacob Varghese, Lakshmi R., Neethu G., Jithin "J.J." John, Parvathi "Paru" Diwakar, Rithvik R. Nair, Anand L. Nair, Goutham K.B., Vijeesh V., Nitin K.N., Abhilash K., Partha Pratim Roy, Rabindra Bikram Sah, Pehraj Kaur, Sumit Gunjan, Nikhil Jain, Raj Bahadur Singh, Steffi Vinod, Ravneet Kaur, Vivian Marandi,  Jeykumar N., Maansi Malhotra, Anisa Panjvani, Abhimanyu Nehra, Rahul Goyal, Ruchi Nagpal, Arushi Sharma, Inderjit Singh, Diwakar Kumar Mishra, K.V. Smitha, Radhika Singh, Ritasha Gupta, Sumeet Sinha, etc etc etc (in order of occurence in the book of my life)

I miss you guys

P.S. I'll make sure that if they make a movie about my life, the trailer features all you guys.

n maybe Osama n Mohammed can write n edit the script, Anshul produce the picture Sandy'll sing, Sunil Lead Guitar, Joe the Rapper n my bro's the DJ. AND if they pay enough Ritz n Radhe can do an item number ;)

Farewell !!!

Four years have passed and we hardly felt them go by.
i did though.
mostly because i spent most of these past 4 years cursing myself for coming here while i could've been in a hundred other places. where, i believe, that i'd have been happier and better off.

but to be honest, when i sit down n think about it, i will miss this place, AND the people i've come to know in my time here.

my first 12-14 months will be by far my most memorable.
i met a couple of crazy guys, just like me. met a girl, crushed on her, got my heart broken, bonded with my brothers in crime, built a couple of robots, one of which sucked n the one which was too good for its own good. then i fell in love with the most amazing girl i've known. went home after a long 3 years, partied like a rock star. got into fights n then came back. that's when things started changing. some for the better, but mostly for the worse.

its been a while since then. n a lot of things have changed.
n this may not be the way i'd like things to be.
but for what it's worth, as long as i live those memories will forever be etched into the deepest recesses my mind.

goodbye class of '07. i'll miss you.

Mirage

I saw you today, standing by yourself,
in the distance, watching me.

I saw you today, hiding in the clouds,
as the rain poured, and  to the bone, drenched me.

I felt you smile, thinking about me.
wondering, if you were here, what life would be.

i realize then that its all too good to be true.
a mirage in the desert.


i'd like things to be the way they were before. but i don't think that's gonna happen.
n i'm not going to pretend that everything's going to be alright.
i'm not strong enough to make it all work.
and i just can't move on.
believe me. i've tried. i need help.
for now i'm holding on. but barely by a thread.

Exams Suck!

i hate exams, i ABSOLUTELY HATE exams.... i mean, who doesn't???

the only difference is that people usually hate exams because of all the tension and mental stress they have to go through to cram endless amounts of information into their ordinary brains in a seemingly infinitesimal amount of time....

I, on the other hand hate exams for other, unorthodox reasons....

for example
any time you have something to say there's no one to listen....
i mean.... SERIOUSLY.... is it impossible to take out TWO LOUSY MINUTES out of your hectic study schedules to say "hi, how are you today??" or, "i'm going out for a cup o' tea.... wanna join me???"

sheesh....

well.... I've learnt one thing from all this....
ITS EVERY MAN (AND WOMAN) FOR HIMSELF (AND HERSELF)....
so watch out for yourselves.... coz there almost definitely isn't gonna be anyone to catch you when you fall....

HI.

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